Thursday, July 30, 2009

Money and a Goal

Money has been a constant worry in my 32 years. No one ever gave me a real need to worry about money when I was growing up, but I still managed to do it. And, I've kept up the tradition to this day.

My "Where Will You Be In 60 Years?" list has always included things like, "Have More Money" or "Save More Money" or "Be Able To Retire - And Have Money!" Money Money Money! That's what it's always about. And, frankly, I'm just tired of it.

It doesn't seem to matter how much money a person has... it's never enough. When I started my current job, almost 13 years ago, I brought home about 1/3 of what I make now. How did I do it? How did I pay my bills? I have no idea. I recently decided to enter all of my monthly spending into Microsoft Money and let me tell you, it was depressing when those final figures came into view. I'm never buying food or gas again (as I plan my Friday evening trip to Target, in my head.)

Keith changed the oil in my car last night. He wants me to buy a new car, since mine was paid off in May. I really don't want to. I'm hoping I can hold out another 3 years, until a different loan is paid off. If I can do that, plus end up with even 1/3 of the money that Microsoft tells me I'll have in a year, I might actually be able to stop worrying about money for a few minutes. But then, I'm sure I'll be signing my name on another dotted line, and 5 more years of worry will be in my future.

P.S. Yes, I am a pessimist. Why do you ask?


Seryus23 said...

I am so right there with you in the early mornings watching TMZ and Cheaters. They are both weird shows, and yet they are very addicting. Of course I like the off the wall stuff like that anyway, so I am sure that is why I watch them.

Anonymous said...

Take a Dave Ramsey class. They are free. It will change the way you think about EVERYTHING to do with money. It has been very helpful. Check it out.